Pretty girl By;Sugarcult
If you get told all the time your beautiful but you don't believe it. You can never find that one special person that you've been looking for...but your a pretty girl right? It does'nt make sense to you...if your beautiful but you always seems like theres no guys who like you...to you love is an excuse to get hurt...and don't worry your just like me. 

That is my theme song i guess. I just took a quiz to pass my boredom.

My birth-month reading    MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

Really it kinda fits

So here> I'm back on xanga!

Seems like 5years in my life has passed. So Lauren has grown up some more.

Actually not really GROWN Up , but I have found a balance of childness beauty & brain of a discipine figure.

It is about time....Right?

So Just chilling listiing to the new silverstien cd, well the newest one. While convently sipping down my last sips of a Chai Tea Latte....MMMMMMMMMMmmmmm Good. OKay now it is gone.

Wells for being a senior in highschool i have not untill recently grew the right mind set to balance the SHOCK of being a Senor....Like College? and Being Shoved responisblity all on one time.  So i just got out of many stuggles that wasn't really necessary.

I have more confidence now, and i have learned to let go of things I shouldn't have had in my brain waves.

Focus is manly i guess on my self spirtual. physically, and emotionally. I can now at least say I love my self.  I am one cool person. That has taken many years to feel that way.

Well  so i like this guy but he may be to old for right me, only hope though for maybe future, but right now i am not going to let that hope consume my thoughts.

I have to get all of my ducks in a row before i even want to think about a long lasting relationship.

Good News!!!! Scholarships have be a knocking 2 for Coffeyvile....which may be a small town but o well it is worth it.

Then i Still plan on majoring in being in Public Relation Manger. and Minor in  Grapic Arts. ........THen i am thinking about Pittsberg after Coffeyvile for 2 Years.

I really want CD's......Damien Rice.......Tristan Prettyman.....INcubus.......and The Classic Led. Zepplin .......and Snow Patrol

I know this post has a server amount of grammer problems so try to ignore*

Anyways A year from tomorrow i recieved this poem i thought it would be cool to post

i found i bottle sitting there
wonder'd what treasures did it bear
it wouldnt open i tried and tried
with my words i pryed and pryed
Just wondering what lay inside
this bottle that lay by my side
i waited here for days and nights
Hoping that one day it might
open up for me to see
what beautys inside there may be
One day it did and to my surprise
there she stood with shimmering eyes
finally this day i see
what beauty there can truly be

okay that is a little info for all the curious people, who still may visit my xanga from time to time.

welll Laterz

Lauren

Currently Listening 18 Candles: The Early Years By Silverstein Dawn Of The Fall see related

 Is it me or does it seem like there is something in the water that is making humans ponder about where they are in life. I have helped like 3 people with problems lately of having emotional break downs. Including myself.

I have came to conclusion that i have loved deeply for a person, maybe even truely love him... Yet it was only for a brief minute or second. Yet i am ready to grow to love a guy longer maybe even a  lifetime. I have had only a taste but walked away. Maybe that is what i have been missing emotionally i miss the feeling of innocence deep soul touching passion. The guy i used to feel that with is in the past and he does not even deserve me to feel that passion so that is why it only lasted a mere sec.

But i am so ready to Move ALONG this river i have just been waiting in.

So i have a stomach ache from eating this

i could have made muffins that looked like these

But im a weirdo and i ate the bowl full of batter!

JOke:

THere were 2 muffins in an oven, One muffin said, "wow it is hot in here"....the other muffin said HOLY COW A TALKING MUFFIN!!!!!